Thursday, August 8, 2013
Okay, so I'm a bit late. Better late than never. Click here for group info.
I haven't posted for a while. I've been horribly busy, rerouting my energies, and taking time for me. Yeah, that's a load full of crap. Excuses, excuses, excuses. I am full of 'em.
In truth, I've been trying to wrap my heart and mind around this whole publishing thing. The dream of it was so much different. I know I said that before. The reality of it is much harder to grasp.
But despite the choices I've made--some bad, some good--I realized that my insecurities haven't changed. The muse is still with me and so is her dark half which keeps telling me I suck. I should give it up. And this thought takes hold of me every time I try to promote myself.
I take a step to talk to someone about how wonderful my book is and why I think they should buy it. I suck
I talk about my writing process. Who's going to listen? I suck.
I lead a writing club for teens. I so suck.
Publishing hasn't changed that. And I hate the battle inside me.
I do have two of the most awesomest crit partners, Anita and Vicky. They anchor me so I don't fall under or float to high away. I don't know what I would do without them.
So...my partners in crime. How do you silence the dark side of your muse?