The first Wednesday of the month is the Insecure Writer's Support Group. For more info, scroll down and click on the picture at the sidebar.
So much has been happening, I don't know where to begin. This may get a bit nasty as my mind tries to make sense of it. But here goes...
I was asked to give a creative writing workshop for teens. Yay! It's something I always wanted to do. See a few months back...go here to read the post. Anyway, of course I'm a bundle of nerves. I've found great resources and support. I just hope it turns out well. I hope I can convey my love for writing as a form of self expression. I hope I don't get creamed by these kids. lol
On top of that, I was offered employment at an organization that provides programs for youth. Again, something I love to do. I've been out of a job since July and volunteer work can only get me so far. Another Yay!
And...I just finished another round of edits for my debut novel, THE SECOND SIGN which be released in February.
So, what's the problem? You ask.
Well...things seem to be falling into place nicely, and I'm still preparing to have the rug pulled out from under me. I've worked so hard to get where I'm at. I did. This is what I've wanted since I was a kid. To make a difference in the life of a child. And to write. To be published. And here I am. So why can't I seem to enjoy the moment? Why does the "I suck" syndrome return with full force when it really has no basis for being there? The road traveled seemed easier than the actual destination. I think it's because I've been living with the uncertainly of my future (professionally) for so long, I don't know how else to live. Now, I know the road has not ended. Once I'm published there's going to be a whole new series of uncertainties.
But the moment is good. Really good. And I have to learn to enjoy it. Any suggestions?